I believe it can be this way for everyone
Today at 2am I learned about the value of forgiveness. I think we are all growing up slowly and steadily and I’m proud of the person I’ve become.
Thank you Ruth, I’m glad we have a friendship.
What love really means.
Every saturday I find new meaning in this. Today I saw a vision in my head, and connected a dot that dated back to 4 years ago. Today in particular is a turning point, in so many ways. All I can say is, thank you all, and thank God.
2am, close to 3am now. Had a coffee with TS and can’t sleep. Or maybe it was the 5 potent scoops of durian ice-cream from Udders. Or maybe I’m just so touched by what I experienced today. Whatever it is, now that I’ve finally had time to think, I’m beginning to see why all these make sense.
He replied, “Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
-Matthew 17:20
2am
So I’m in my 3rd week (aka 2nd last week) of RnT internship. It’s been an eventful week thus far, and I’ve been kept sufficiently occupied (and tired) by the upcoming HH moots that I’m pretty sure I’m not even going to get past the first round for, but okay, all for fun and experience right? Also today I sent an email to Big Boss to say that I’m quitting Law Musical 2012, because I’ve put things into perspective and I realise that - year 3 is gonna be a big year for me - and I don’t want to jeopardise that. I just don’t think I can deal with being part of a large-scale and immensely time-consuming right now.
I’m growing addicted to staying up at 2am, because it’s that amazing time of the day where I’m not cluttered with thoughts (either because I’m too tired or because my brain isn’t working at this time). Well, 2am- haha, how did I come to associate songs and emotions with this time of the day - but I’ve got to admit that 2am is really a good time to do so many things I don’t get to do in the day. Like, think about life. And everything that has happened till this point in time. And God. Even when I’m tired, there is always space in my heart and mind for this. I think the notion that there’s always something to crawl home to really appeals to a ground sentiment in me. I think I just want to be grounded by something real.
Anyway, life feels good, as long as the 2am songs keep coming. I have a knack for establishing whether a song is nice within 30 seconds of it and today’s one was damn nice as usual :) Refuse to be denied!
Just got back from two intense rounds of Scrabble at Teaparty (6th Avenue) with Adnaan. Oh how that place has changed…the people, the menu, the lack of a wi-fi network now, haha. Miss the times when I was waitressing there. And I really need to brush up on my scrabble skills, I lost to him both times, tragically, by 30 and 60 points respectively. But all’s good, cuz i had a good time catching up with my dear friend <3
Back home and looping this song now. Nowadays I tend to listen to music right before i sleep, it’s such a complete end to the day. This song- well, I really really love it. Shawn is awesome with 2am songs. I can’t stop looping haha
These, are the things, that make us feel alive
Life is beautiful
“Because, if you really think about it, the probability that God exists is really much higher than the probability that He doesn’t”
The Happiest Puppy,Todays Cuteness :) via:cutestpaw. For the Dog Lovers :)
(via lajoiedespetiteschoses)
You feel like falling down; I’ll carry you home
Monday, when FOTY came over to visit.
So I’m halfway done with my internship. Time really seems to fly when one is having fun, and it’s just like what I feared; that I’ll have to leave not long after seats, and hearts, have been warmed. I hope these friendships are built to last though. Because, you’ve become really important to me, without even me knowing it. 2 more weeks to go and then I won’t see you for months.
Last night was nice; magma and j-bar with weiyuan et al, and then alleybar. Goodbye weiyuan, it’s like I’ve said, you’ve been a blessing to us all while you were here so… go be a blessing to other people in Hongkong! ^^ The night was accented with bursts of good food, alcohol, laughter, friendship and of course, unnecessary but all-too-funny innuendos from the king of innuendos none other than Kenneth Kee himself, and his solid innuendo counterpart, Cephas. I’ve missed you all, guys.
And then alleybar. I had a bottle of apple cider, my 3rd serving of alcoholic beverage that night following the glass of riesling at Magma (expensive and good stuff, that was) and the jagerbomb at J-bar. I like how I was only subtly inebriated, to the extent that I was able to still conduct myself with propriety while being unusually bright-eyed, participative, and excitable. And the company was good; it’s always nice to find someone who understands, somebody who makes perfect sense. Somebody who thinks the opposite of you, so that when you’re losing faith in something, his absolute faith in it compels you to restore your own faith in it.
Me: You know, I don’t think I will ever get it right. I’ve been in all sorts of relationships, and none of them was ever right for me. Puppy love, unreciprocated love, being loved more than I can handle…
Him: And you think that’s exhausting all the relationships you can possibly have? Well, how about the one that works?
Here’s to the one that works, even if it never comes.
Now and then you find a good song that depicts to an aching accuracy your exact state of mind at one point in your life, and you’ve just gotta share
I’m mostly glad I’m in a better place now :)
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart
— Jeremiah 29:13
Happy mother’s day <3
So today we commemorate the greatness of our mothers! We had a family lunch at a newly opened (March, I think) french restaurant called Saveur at Purvis street and it was honestly the best meal I’ve ever had. It wasn’t just awesome food it was also value for money, and most importantly, all of my family was together and happy (:
(Credits to http://ohnomnomnom.com/2012/04/14/saveur/)
(Credits to http://ohnomnomnom.com/2012/04/14/saveur/)
OMG, this was SO GOOD. My brother, upon eating this, said “Omg, I feel so touched by the taste”. Indeed, it was a rich, savoury explosion that melted flavorfully away in our mouths, and the lentils further enhanced the overall taste of it. All that goose goodness!! We loved it so much we had four of this HAHA.
(Credits to http://ohnomnomnom.com/2012/04/14/saveur/)
This was extremely satisfying too, although the serving was starter-size. It was just good enough to keep us going until our mains came. We didn’t actually have what this photo features, but its cheaper counterpart, Angel Hair Pasta with shrimps ($3.90 only!!!)
(Credits to http://ohnomnomnom.com/2012/04/14/saveur/)
Dad and I had this. For $8.90 it was a generous serving of duck on mashed potatoes with shitake mushrooms and tangy orange segments. I think our palettes were dancing away all afternoon.
Besides these, we also had the pea soup ($4.90) , raw fresh oysters (6 for $19!), and my Mom and Bro ordered the Wagyu beef for mains, which was really really well done too (no pun intended). That was the most expensive dish on the menu and it was only $21.90! The entire bill totaled to about $147 including drinks, and my brother and I split it in the proportions of 75:25 (WHAT TO DO, HE HAS INCOME FROM OCS AND I HAVE NOTHING)
Afterwards, mom and I went shopping and she got me new court shoes from Ecco for $200 and a Bimba and Lola purse for $105. (Yes, I know, it’s unconscionable on my part since it’s Mother’s Day and all. But I really needed these stuff.) And anyway she also bought another B&L purse for herself too. I think we were all very satisfied today haha.
HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!! Thank you for everything you’ve done for me. When my pants need tailoring, you are always there for me, readily equipped with the sewing kit. When I am hungry and you have just come back tired from work, you’d still cook me your special instant noodles with added vegetables, eggs and meat. You bleach my white shirts back to white when I ruin them in the wash. You make cheesy comments about how close we siblings are that make us roll our eyes. You make bird’s nest for us unfailingly every Sunday. You call us to ask us how our day is going even though we’re often too busy for you ):. You tirelessly supported our piano education throughout the years, and you gave me the gift of music. You are the happiest when we do well in school, heartbroken when we don’t, but yet never really imposing your opinions on us. You gave me the gift of life. You gave me the gift of sight, hearing, touch, smell, and taste, and you gave me me. Thank you for bringing me into this world, for bringing me up, and I owe everything I am and have to you.
Uplifting
Church for the second time; today I took my first baby step and I prayed in the only way I knew how to, and spoke to this God whose existence befuddles me even up to now. I whispered in my heart: Dear God, please show me that you are there if you really are so that I can learn how to put my faith in You.
I really honestly think God responded to me. Firstly, through Sofia and Grace’s prayers, which really touched me to the point of me tearing uncontrollably. Sofia said that not everyone has the chance to be touched by God this way, and I’m special, and that they’re merely speaking God’s words to me when praying for me. Secondly, I bumped into Aileen, who was an old dear friend from NYGH and JC and who, like me, wasn’t a Christian until 2 years ago when she started coming to this Church, which is perhaps God’s way of telling me not to rush things because I will eventually go to Him.
I just wanted to take this chance to reflect on my life right now too. I want to acknowledge this: that I’m in a really good place in life now, and I cannot ask for more. And so, right now I just want to thank God for putting so much in my way for the past few years, so that I can eventually overcome everything and learn, at the end of all my difficult journeys, that God is right there waiting for me to find Him. Thank you for giving me a complete family, although we are not as well-to-do as others; we are peaceful. Thank you for giving me the strength to do so well in school, finally, because although I may not be the best; I have come a long way. Above all, thank you for putting all these amazing spiritual people in my life, people I would never have expected to meet otherwise, because although I may not have their level of spirituality and personal relationship with You yet; at least I’m starting somewhere, thanks to them. If this is Your work then You have really truly provided.
Today’s sermon talked about Jesus washing Judas’ feet and treating him the with the same level of love with which He showed his other disciples even in the face of the latter’s imminent betrayal. I thought it was particularly uplifting, because this speaks of a love that was unconditional and unwavering and it is this great love of God that I hope to eventually come to appreciate.
